Checkin in - Eat Clean Diet

Hi blog world! I miss you!

I really do miss reading about your lives, but I just haven't had the time to blog. Things have been going well, not in the weight loss department, (I'm still fluctuating from 191 - 194 lbs) but I'm doing GREAT in the health dept. I feel great! See me smile?
This was me on June 15th, halfway through a hike. =)

I had an ankle injury so couldn't run the half-marathon two weeks ago, but I walked it in 3hrs 31 mins and I am about to sign up for a 10k (6.2 miles) in September. This one, I should be able to run **pray** I also do Jillian videos as often as I can, go walking as much as possible and do a little weight lifting.

Foodwise - I decided to quit WW. I never really followed the plan anyway, my teacher was a looney and I just can't justify spending $40/month to get weighed when I weigh myself at home AND my trainer weighs me twice a month. I started taking cooking classes (I only know how to prepare boxed meals) so soon I'll be a cooking machine and won't have to rely on eating out all the time.

And.... I started a new diet - Tosca Reno's "Clean-Eating Diet" It's tough! Not really because it's not hard to do, it's actually really simple. But.... adapting to a completely foreign lifestyle is hard and scary. So far, so good.

Day 1 - took me 90 minutes to get all the veggies down for lunch!!! Feeling good, except I felt headachy and lethargic that night. Probably sugar/caffeine withdrawl.

Day 2 - much faster lunch this time, great food choices and enjoyed almost every bite. Still felt a bit headachy, but I took some advil and went for a 4 mile walk with a friend on the water front.

Day 3 - (today) again, doing good, this seems almost too easy which makes me afraid!

I am afraid that I can't sustain this lifestyle forever. How soon will I toss in the rag and ravage a bag of cookies, washing it down with diet soda and maybe some cheesecake? I'm afraid that all of this will be for naught. I don't feel deprived of those foods, but I miss them. How does that work? This is not me.... I'm not a vegetable eater, I'm not a "clean-eating" freak, I'm not a dieter who takes flax seed and shops at whole-food stores. Will I always be able to say no to pizza and movie night? Will I be able to decline a cheesy quesedilla from Del Taco or a double cheeseburger from McDonalds. The burger sounds disgusting to me right now, but will it always be that way?

Then again.... Fluffy me was never a runner, would never imagine running. And yet, I participated in a half-marathon less than 2 weeks ago. Fluffy me would never have scoffed at the chance to run 2K because it wasn't a big enough challenge. Fluffy me would never have picked up the book "You are what you eat" and "Clean-Eating Diet." And yet... she did. And here I am.

So maybe I can do this after all. Maybe. =)